It's meant to be.

I cried last night, and all I wanted was to be in his arms.

I cried 'cos I was weak, even insecure, and he had hurt me.

I wanted to feel special again, because that is something the world is constantly taking away from me.

I wanted to feel like I mattered to him, because in everyone else's lives I was inconsequential, and I knew it.

I wanted to feel like the reason someone was happy, 'cos of late I have been feeling so self-centred.

I wanted to feel like I had given to someone, unconditionally, 'cos of late I have been feeling so selfish.

I wanted, I wanted, I wanted..... just to feel, so I could live and love my life again.

I wanted to feel like I had someone special, because I knew I did, and I did not want the world to be constantly taking that away from him.

I wanted him to feel like he mattered to me, and more so than anyone else, just in case he was feeling like he didn't to anyone else.

I wanted him to know that he was the reason I was happy, and that he was the most caring, most generous person I had ever met.

I wanted to tell him that he had given me the greatest joys of my life and the most valuable moments ever.

I wanted.... to end these strange silences that have gradually crept up between us, to bury all the meaningless tears and suspicions. I wanted... so we could together feel life again, to support our dreams, to love each other (in order) to love life and everything that comes our way.... just the way it used to be, just the way it's meant to be....